Dug out this Kamal interview given to Shobha Warrier of Rediff.com in 2004, around the time of Vasool Raja MBBS. Thanks again to UniversalHeroKamal.com. Kamal talks about a wide range of topics including what drives him, where he gets feedback from and criticism. He even expresses interest in doing a Marathi movie. Excerpts:
Acting ceases to be work because I enjoy it. But it feels like working when I do bad work, especially when I know it is bad.
The moment we mime to inform an unwanted caller that you are not around, you are acting.
…I am first a fan of Kamal Haasan…You must appreciate what you are doing. Tell me, when do you become a respectable person in society? When you start respecting yourself. That is when you take care of yourself, that is when you comb your hair, groom yourself and cleanse your body. You do all this because you respect yourself. You won’t wear a dress because you may not look good in that. My being a fan of Kamal Haasan is also like that.
What do you like and dislike about yourself?
What I like is what I exhibit. What I don’t like, I edit so that you don’t see it. It is like clothing. It is like how men wear tight T-shirts to show off their muscles. If they have a paunch, they wear loose shirts.
People around you are always ready to serve you. How do you keep in touch with reality?
It’s very difficult. Yes, you do lose touch with reality. It is like the neural numbness that diabetic patients get. My mother was diabetic, so I know what it is like. The extremities becomes numb for diabetic patients.
Once you attain stardom, you lose that finer touch with society. When you are a man on the street, you get to know every vibration. But once you attain this status, more than you, people become self-conscious by your presence.
But I can’t go back to my old environs. So I try not to effect a change in the environment because of my star presence.
How then do you get those finer vibrations from society?
I have to steal them.
From where?
I watch quietly. I imitate. That is how I steal moments. For me, television is a great boon. I don’t watch any of these cinema programmes they offer. There is nothing for me to learn from them. I watch National Geographic, Reality television, the History Channel and the daily news. These are very important contacts with life.
At any time, did you feel like wearing a mask and going out?
I have done that! I am one of the very few actors who have done that. But now, I don’t think it is worthwhile. Times of terrorism, you know. I used to change my get-up when I was in Mumbai and see my films. I had changed my get-up and visited a company which was producing a film with me. They were auditioning for another character. I even auditioned as another man!
You have portrayed a variety of characters. Like stealing moments, were you consciously stealing them?
Could be. Virumaandi was 50 percent from my memory of where I come from. The rest came from my running around. I moved around that area where the story of Virumaandi took place for nearly three months. I would drive around aimlessly, absorbing the place. It was not method acting. I had lost touch with that place. And suddenly, it came back. I was like a man with amnesia trying to remember and put the blocks together in a puzzle.
Do you analyse your films too, especially the ones that don’t do well?
Whether a film is doing well or not is not a criterion. That is only the business criterion. For me, excellence is the only criterion. It is not like cooking where you attain a standard and say, this rasam is good with this mixture. One day, it is rasam, the next day, another mixture to probably make TNT. Acting is beyond that.
…For me, Aalavandhan is passé. It’s boring. Hey! Ram is a film I love not because it is a neglected child, but I feel it is a more complete film than even Virumaandi. The success or failure of it does not matter to me. Success matters to me to make another film. But after my death, certain films will give me respect, like novels left behind by good novelists.
…I felt that way before Apoorva Sahodaragal. I wanted to retire. I felt silly doing the same things over and over again. I kept asking myself what I wanted to do. People told me what I wanted to do would not run. Later, I understood. Don’t listen to them, just go ahead and do it!
Is that why you became a filmmaker?
Yes. That is what has kept me alive. I design the architecture of Kamal Haasan’s career.
…Likewise, Sakala Kala Vallavan and all my films before Nayagan – except for films like Silangai Oli and other intelligent ones — the rest were crass. But they collected money and entertained people.
…In fact, I am seriously thinking of doing a Marathi film.
Marathi culture is a great culture which is as old and important as Tamil culture. It is a bigger state too. It is a pity they have given up all their culture to Hindi cinema. I don’t know why they don’t have the vernacular pride that Tamilians have. They should be producing 100 films a year.
I would love to act in a Marathi film, on my terms. I am not talking about money. It should be a good film.